Rihanna to Oprah: ‘I Still Love Chris Brown’ [Video]
Rucuss staffAugust 21, 2012
Rihanna’s highly anticipated interview with Oprah Winfrey aired on OWN network and it didn’t disappoint.
Oprah traveled to Barbados to interview the pop star in her hometown. RiRi opened up about signing her first record deal when she was 16. She talked about her family and made sure she showed her true self. The most shocking moment of the interview happened when she revealed she still loves her ex-boyfriend Chris Brown and she has forgiven him. She also confessed the two are good friends and they saw each other while she was on vacation in St. Tropez last month.
Check out a few of the excerpts about what Rihanna had to say about Brown below.
On moving on from the 2009 incident:
“I have to move on. I can’t tell people how to feel about it. They’re entitled to feel angry because it wasn’t a good thing that happened. But I have [forgiven] and that’s my personal thing.”
On the current status of their relationship:
“We’ve been working on our friendship again. We’re very, very close friends. We built a trust again and that’s it. We love each other and we probably always will.”
On how she feels when she sees him:
“It’s awkward because I still love him. My stomach drops. I have to maintain this poker face and not let it get to the outer part of me.”
On if she thinks Chris is her true love:
“Absolutely. I think he was the love of my life. He was the first love and I see that he loved me the same way. We were very young and very spontaneous. We ran free. We ran wild. We were falling in love going at a really rapid pace and we forgot about ourselves as individuals. We forgot about our personal discipline. I truly love him and the main thing for me is that he is at peace. I’m not at peace if he is a little unhappy or he is still lonely. I care. It actually matters that he finds that peace.”
On if she has forgiven Chris:
“I have forgiven him. It took me a long time. I was angry for a long time. I felt like this is not my fault, this is not me doing this but still I had to worry. I was resentful. I had a grudge. I was dark and it was coming out in my music and in my clothes, it was coming out in my attitude and I didn’t like that feeling. It was heavy.
I had to repair my relationship with my dad. I was so angry at him. I was angry about a lot of things from my childhood and I couldn’t separate him as a husband from him as a father. I felt like if he was a bad husband, he was a bad father. I witnessed a lot as a child in my household. [He was] violent. My family broke up because of his addiction. I remember one day thinking, ‘Why can’t I come to a place where I let someone in. Why can’t I love’. I’d get to a place [with guys] where I really liked them and then I’d change. I would never talk to them again and I wanted to know why. And I wanted to know ‘what is my idea of what’s suppose to happen’? It was because I didn’t have a relationship with my father anymore and so I wasn’t able to connect with a man past a certain point.
The minute I was able to realize that my father was probably one of the best fathers in the world. Like he taught me everything, and as awful as he was to my mom at times, it didn’t compare to how great he was as a father. And I had to come to terms with that and I was able to close that gap with him and all kinds of emotions starting happening after that. All kinds of things started making sense.
I thought I hated Chris and I realized it was love that was tarnished. It was ugly, it was angry, it was inflamed, it was tainted and I realized that, I had to forgive him because I cared about him still. And the minute I did that, I started living again. [Once I realized there was a connection between the two [my relationship with my father and my relationship with Chris], I had to go to the source.
On if they’re back together:
“No, he’s in a relationship of his own. I’m single but we have maintained a close friendship ever since the restraining order has been dropped. We just worked on it little by little but it’s not easy.”
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